Because I’m going to Peru in November, and it felt like I really needed to finally close the door on the first trip. It’s not that I feel like I finished the process of learning, really, but I do feel like I’ve traveled as far down a particular road as I can alone and I need more guidance. I made great strides, I think. I hope. But I would like to make many more.
I started weaning off my usual daily 60mg dose of Cymbalta back in August, and should be meds-free by October 1st. Because it’s a capsule I’ve been following a particularly tedious method that I found recommended online. I took about two weeks to shift to 30mg capsules, and since then I have literally been opening the capsules and removing five more ‘beads’ from the dose each day. It’s not an exact science, ans the number of beads actually varies from capsule to capsule, but it’s slow and less of a shock to the system. As of today I am taking roughly a 10mg dose. It hasn’t been as bad as I recall the last time I weaned off meds to be, although the last few days I have been feeling it more than most.
It’s an unpredictable process. It is why I have nothing planned musically after the next 2 shows.
Still, I remain capable of having creative ideas and acting on them to an extent, and that is something. I remain capable of writing silly blog posts detailing the process as if there are people who would want to read them.
I’m going alone this time, which is something of a THING for someone who doesn’t travel well to begin with and will be off his meds. I leave on November 13th, I’ll be back on the 24th. In between I will participate in five ceremonies. I will try to write while I am there this time and take lots of photos.
I did not edit this post for clarity.