This is all my fault

Anger is energy. Love is direction.

So many points in history that people look back upon and say, how did people let that happen? Well, now we all know.

Article after article and post after post, trying to find who to blame. But it’s not people who didn’t vote, or people who were Bernie-or-busters, or third parties, or the DNC, or Hillary, or the media, or whatever the fuck else…

It was us. Comfortable white people whose lives weren’t TOO bad, who saw things happening and posted links and videos and complained and argued online and shared memes and thought, okay, that was good enough. I made my stance public, so I’m in the clear now. Other people will get the harder work done.

It was me.

So now it’s not enough for us to be merely indignant or fearful or angry. People were ALREADY suffering. Now they will suffer even more, and we are only just now considering the self-involved, terrifying prospect that we, comfortable white people, might even begin to suffer, too. It’s time to do things. It’s time to act and be organized. And all of that is a lie because it is LONG-PAST time.

Lydon was right when he said anger is an energy. We just watched it happen. Anger is energy. But love is direction. Love doesn’t have to be passive. Love doesn’t have to be a word that is instantaneously dismissed as weak or naive. Empathy can run a nation as well as self-centeredness can. It’s harder, and we have to be involved.

We have to do more than talk. We have to make sacrifices for our fellow people. We have to step up and move. Join and donate. Make phone calls. Listen to and support those who are already suffering. Organize and act. Hell, run for office. These are all things, as a depressive, that terrify me. Maybe they terrify you, too. But this is the time. People will wonder how we allowed this to happen. Let’s show them we won’t.

Please, come with me. Help me try and I’ll help you try.

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Anger is energy. Love is direction.

I’m not here to tell you who to vote for

I voted for Nader in 2000. I still don’t regret it. Since then I have always said that the Democratic Party isn’t owed my vote by default, they’re obligated to convince me why I should give it. It’s why I voted for Bernie Sanders in the primaries. Because of that stance, I feel like I should explain why I’m voting for Hillary Clinton, even though I dislike her as a candidate.

In just the past few days since I started trying to write this, here’s what has happened:

After spending months fighting accusations that she was too close to the major banks, the Democratic nominee chose a VP who just voted to further deregulate them.
After spending months claiming that the DNC was completely impartial in the primaries, the chair of the DNC has resigned following leaks that revealed the opposite. The Democratic nominee immediately hired her.

But you know what else happened?

The Republican Party nominated a bigoted, racist, sexist, pandering, narcissistic, demagogic, bullying, vindictive, pathological liar who speaks to the absolute worst in people, who supported beating up protesters at his rallies, who wants to deport all Muslims, who supports committing war crimes, who openly calls for a less free press, who fights against the separation of church and state, who refuses to read books and believes conspiracy theories, who “won’t rule out” using nuclear weapons in Europe, who wants to increase the number of nations with nuclear weapons, and who the very week he was nominated let NATO know he would not honor its agreements, increasing exponentially the likelihood of another Cold War (at best).

It’s not even about his ideology, it’s about who he is as a person. He surrounds himself with yes-men, is defensive, unapologetic, and temperamentally unsuited to be President. He openly admires authoritarian dictators for their ability to ignore the law and get things done. The reaction in Europe to his NATO comments is especially instructive as to how much damage he could do in office without having to pass a single bill.

Of course, he won’t be president. Except… before that it was of course he won’t be the nominee. Of course he won’t last until Cleveland. This year, I don’t trust what is supposed to be obvious. There are a lot of scared, angry people who don’t want change out there, and the world is changing on them, and fast. And when people are scared and angry they vote for authoritarians.

Look, I read the same things you do, the same dismissive insults constantly lobbed by moderates (and moderates who call themselves progressives) towards progressives. I’ve watched people talk about how the polling shows that she’s won over a majority of Sanders supporters now, so the rest don’t matter. It was a couple of weeks of appeasement and then it dropped right away, back to the assumption that we have nowhere else to go with our vote. It’s insulting. It’s galling.

But sadly, disappointingly, it’s also true this year.

None of the third parties have the ground game or infrastructure to actually win. Most years, that doesn’t matter, and a conscientious vote, or a conscientious abstain, is a wash in the larger sense. Yes, there should be more viable parties. Yes, the Democratic Party should actually try to convince you (and then PROVE) they’re worth your vote and not treat it as something they just own. So, let’s work to build that infrastructure, let’s make a viable third party, put forth local candidates, support the building of something truly strong and viable that can truly compete in a national election by 2020 and beyond. I’m all in.

But please, I ask you, beg you even, to consider (just consider, I’m not trying to tell you what to do with your vote) the idea that this moment in time is truly one of the most dangerous we have seen in our generation. The threat of authoritarianism is real. This man is truly dangerous. If it was ANYONE other than Trump, in this moment, I wouldn’t care. Hell, if it were Trump, in any OTHER moment, I wouldn’t care. But in this world, in this moment, where the only viable choice is between Nixon or Mussolini, I’ll hold my nose and vote for Nixon.

You know how you read a history of something and you think, how could people have let that happen? Well, we’re people, and things are happening. Your vote is your right. Please, just think about it.

We begin actual work on a new record

It’s a strange world to rejoin after a decade away. The night is dark and full of neuroses.

I have big plans for the thing… or maybe “elaborate” is a better word. Elaborate plans that involve a number of non-musical skills I don’t currently possess, and a lot more work than just organizing the recording process. Plans that represent me trying to find ways to work inside and outside a music industry that is less recognizable to me than it was when I was last part of it, and finding different ways to tell a story that might be engaging.

I’m going to try to be more engaging, too. It’s probably no secret to you that every attempt to let the world know I exist is also a battle with my own mental limits. I won’t ask for your patience, because if you’re reading this you’re already still here, and thank you.